Date: 2008-07-03 13:03 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Mood: exhausted

I've had a recurring nightmare twice in succession now... I don't understand this.

At least my experience doesn't seem to be out of the ordinary, but if I'm going to lose sleep, I'd much prefer it to be on my own terms.

Date: 2008-04-21 21:50 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Mood: drunk

ddear diary

i was outside piocking posiessamples becuz marluxioa9jerk)  ruined the last onessa nd ig tot caught in the rain but its okay. i;dm not surgar i wont melt rite/? but thek smost mazing thing happened but noonel wil beleve me.

noone ever beleves me

:'(

((OOC: someone got caught out in the wine rain for a little too long... XD ))

Date: 2008-03-11 16:57 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Mood: shocked

AUGH

THIS ISN'T FUNNY

Lexaeus, where are you? Help me!

Date: 2008-03-04 21:21 Subject: 007 Security: Public Mood: devious

...I found a colored egg in my desk this morning. The contents of which happen to be ... what appear to be marshmallow peeps. The only use these vile things have are for roasting over an open flame to gargantuan proportions.

....

Which may make them of some valid use after all. I believe I'll step out for the morning.

o/`

Date: 2008-02-22 01:24 Subject: 006 Security: Public Mood: sore

urgh

I've returned from my ... impromptu leave of absence from the World That Never Was. It wasn't exactly what I was expecting, but ... perhaps I might have to disappear more often. Lexaeus, do let me know.

It seems quite a bit has been happening since I last checked up on our numbers and the worlds in general. I'm not sorry I missed that bit with the flowers. However, I find myself surprised that hearts actually seem to be turning up for some. I admit, I found myself pessimistic of the chances, but this would not be the first time I've been surprised. Out of the thousands of hearts stolen, and the countless ones destroyed along with Kingdom Hearts... ours still exist; and even more surprising, they have been rediscovered.

I have little urge to find mine, although I do admit to a certain curiosity as to what has become of it. I'm almost tempted to seek it out if only for the purpose of further study. After all... was that not what we gave our hearts up for in the first place? Ah yes: all in the name of science. Perhaps sometime in the future I'll see what I can find.

But not right now... my hip is KILLING me. I'm not going anywhere for a few days.

Date: 2007-12-12 13:09 Subject: 005 Security: Public Mood: amused

I have to admit, watching the cornucopia of mortified journal entries popping up like they are is an entertaining way to spend the morning. I suppose eventually I should venture out and see what the damage is, as the saying goes. I'll need to aerate the lab as well; recycled air is well and good, but can't last forever. I suppose before I follow Zexion's lead and venture back out into the halls I should extend the offer to those needing assistance with any painful after effects of their drugged escapades. My doors are open for the time being.

Date: 2007-12-03 11:23 Subject: 004 Security: Public Mood: content

I'm not even outside with the three ring circus that Centerverse has turned into and it's still managing to give me a headache. I probably shouldn't even be posting this; it will only leave me open to more of the blatant harassment that has been following me around like a lost puppy lately. I'm almost tempted to find my old HAZMAT suit and step out just long enough to put a stop to it... but then I remind myself that my luck can run for only so long. I'm much better off in here with Zexion.

Who is doing a remarkable job of reminding me how good of a cook he was and still is. I can't say I've ever thought to use my equipment in such ways, but he's done a wonderful job of working with what he has. I'm quite appreciative and my time sealed up here has been greatly improved. It might actually be ... enjoyable. Now if only we could have gotten Lexaeus, it would have been like old times. Alas.

...I smell an intriguing take on tea coming from the lab. Perhaps I'll continue this entry later.

Date: 2007-11-29 13:16 Subject: NOTICE Security: Public Mood: irritated

Before any one of you lot try to blame me, the purple smoke that's been invading the castle is not my doing.

Date: 2007-11-14 18:53 Subject: 003 Security: Public Mood: sore

My lab is a mess.

First with Marluxia's temper tantrum and then with the entire TROUPE of bloody Nobodies that marched around in it... I'm going to be cleaning for weeks. Hopefully a full immersion in sanitary products will also make myself feel less like I've been through some intensive tour of a slaughter house. It has been quite some time since I've had to bloody my hands so much... elbow deep in the Superior's chest wasn't exactly where I had expected to spend that evening. Regardless, I suspect him to recover given time. I have yet to hear a proper explanation for what happened aside from Demyx's rambling, which was only BARELY informative, although it's my understanding that the Terra persona has been repressed again. Perhaps for good? It's difficult to tell, as I am not a psychologist. The physical changes that had been noted upon the first change are gone, however and it seems that we have our Superior back to us. While I do express some small relief at his return, I also find myself disappointed. I don't think I gained as much as I would have liked out of Terra. Hopefully the future might yet yield more information.

Also, Marluxia: I should rightfully send you an invoice for all the equipment you destroyed in your little fit earlier. In lieu of this, however, I will consider this a formal warning to stay away from myself and my labs until you feel you are able to function in a calm, rational and non-psychotic manner. Failure to do so will result in my seeking alternative methods to enforce my warning. Methods which, I assure you, will result, without fail, in bodily harm upon your person.

Now I've managed to cultivate a headache. ...This has been a most unpleasant day.

Date: 2007-10-14 09:19 Subject: 002 Security: Public Mood: busy

I find myself rather busy at the present time attempting to work out what exactly happened at Radiant Garden. I... am not quite sure if it was exactly what Xemnas was expecting to happen, but then, he's not around to ask. Unfortunately. However, mere words can not possibly describe my absolute delight at the presence of Terra. Now the question becomes whether or not I will be able to wrest him from the clinging, grabbing hands of everyone else.

I've already wasted enough time that could be spent gathering more information. The others were supposed to have returned to this castle as well, but I haven't see hide nor hair of them, so I can only assume that they are either dragging their feet or have gone somewhere else. It only allows me more time to make sure I have everything in order before I confront Terra again.

A moment I eagerly look forward to.

Date: 2007-09-26 20:47 Subject: 001 Security: Public Mood: drained

How disgraceful; it seems as if even the nothing of Oblivion will not tolerate my existence if I have been so spat back out. Although, if anything is to be gleaned from this impromptu ‘rebirth’ it is that perhaps we, as nobodies, are not so close to nothingness as we had thought before. There must be something present for even the simplest building block, and to recreate something so complex as a mind, it’s experiences and memories, there must be something more. This I know better than anyone else, having shaped those very things with my own hands. To be here and remember everything… I could not have been reduced to nothingness as Axel had so wished.

Perhaps Number Eight has done me a favor in allowing this first hand experience to look back upon the void and contemplate it. How many beings truly get the chance to draw knowledge from their own demise? I don’t suspect even those that do honestly understand the chance they’ve been given… but I do. There is a wealth of new information to be gained here and now, a veritable cornucopia of ramifications that boggles even my mind. Oh to be able to spend the proper time necessary on these things, but if my casual research into recent events is accurate, then I don’t suppose I will have such a luxury. It is the curse of such great discoveries to be crushed under the oppressive vise of schedules and deadlines. Such things made in haste by those who do not realize what they squander in their ignorance… but that is not how it shall be this time, is it?

No, there is more in play this time than just the failings of the unenlightened. This much I have come to understand through even my off-handed perusing and it seems that if I wish to make the most of what is being offered, I must act quickly. With luck, I can preserve what information would be destroyed by such rushing. Such a despicable thing…

I only hope no one has made off with my PDA.